It doesn't happen often, but world, look out. My competitiveness has been provoked ( Read more... )

Interesting comment from W last night. I'd read a particular book (Mercedes Lackey, _Fortune's Fool_) and suggested he might like to read it before taking it back to the library. I didn't really have a concrete reason, just that I'd enjoyed it and it had a fairly solid and fun male lead as well as a solid and fun female lead. He finished it, and I ( Read more... )

It is an interesting thing to consider: how the men I've loved who've challenged me to be more than I am have in the end found me wanting, and gone.

This says both something about me and about them, I know. And this is not a harsh thing I consider.

But still, sometimes I wonder a certain great what-if.

Westley and I tend to have some quite different systems for managing our lives. His rely a lot more on "close enough is good enough" than mine do. Most of the time this is OK, and I'm happy to work with both systems and styles at once, but every so often I end up in tears when something's ended up in a form I can't manage easily. It's usually a ( Read more... )

W and I visited changelingwings on the weekend. It's been ages since we caught up, just hardly ever in the same part of the country at the same time. But we managed it on the weekend ( Read more... )

I couldn't help it. I refuse to participate in the whole concept of collectibles, but today I did in fact buy a little teddybear from a particular collectible series. I have three from this series already, as it happens. They're done up as characters, and I have an elf bear and two environmental fairy bears. The first thing I do when I get them is ( Read more... )

It was quiet. We went away and just sat, on a large granite outcropping watching the sunset. Sun. I'd climbed on granite, we'd walked around and under it, we'd had sex pushed up against it. And through it all, the sun shone. Then at the end of the day, we sat still and listened to the cows, the sheep, the birds, all in their end of day song. And it ( Read more... )

Me: (slightly meepy/miffed) But I was sure I was pregnant this time ( Read more... )

We were talking in bed the other night, and W said very firmly that he was going to be dependable for me. I couldn't help it. I had to say, in a just-slightly-sarcastic voice, "Yeah, because dependable's what I've always wanted". I've always steered away from people who offered me security as their big feature, frequently including W -smile-. It's ( Read more... )

I had a bad dream about my mother a few nights ago. I and W searched for her with "no good reason" after she'd gone hiking solo, and found her with a broken and mangled leg in an off track area. I was so incredibly relieved to find her. I woke up from that dream and clung shivering and limp to W for about an hour and a half before my alarm went off ( Read more... )